tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593868658613346166.post7337411945064289225..comments2023-07-16T01:32:06.958-07:00Comments on Eclectic Effervescence: Bonding.Aprilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17986725933208328225noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593868658613346166.post-33492942789462465132012-06-05T18:23:27.649-07:002012-06-05T18:23:27.649-07:00Ugh- I just tried to leave a comment and I think b...Ugh- I just tried to leave a comment and I think blogger ate it- so sorry if this is coming to you twice. <br />In reading your post I was able to recognize trauma in my own birth experience and I want to share that and thank you. <br />In the weeks and months really after Emilio was born I kept returning to the early hours of his life and feeling immense pain, and guilt, and saddness and angst to go back and change how I'd done some things. I remember that sleepy, pass out feeling, I think I did just pass out a couple of times with people talking to me. But what really stuck out to me and caused me the most grief was a feeling like I'd starved my son. I would tell myself, but he had stores from the womb, colustrum wouldn't have "nourished" him in that way anyway, etc. But I couldn't shake it, I'd return to the moments often and it hurt, a lot. <br />I processed it though, in the moment with Matt and my Mom and just talking through it and moving further away from it knowing it existed is what helped.<br />I think I was able to do it this way because I'd learned after my Dad died that you can't escape it, it will come, often uglier than before if you don't address it in the moments. It never goes away, you'll always have to deal with it in one way or another. <br />So thank you, for helping me recognize the trauma in my own birth experience and also helping me realize that I've processed it. I'm here rooting you on as you continue this journey.Adriennehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08395825488988423397noreply@blogger.com