Monday, July 14, 2008

now

Dear Thailand,

Please send some delicious recipes and food. I would particularly enjoy learning all of your secrets for tangy and tantalizing soup.

Love and kisses,

Baby Purinton

p.s. feed me. feed me. feed me.


This is what's going on in my belly. Well, actually my uterus. Apparently my child has inherited my sweet husband's appetite and quite the little palate for Thai food. I cannot, cannot, cannot get enough Thai food into my belly. I've taken to making up my own Thai recipes. And gourmet that I may be, I am no expert on Thai. I'm considering chaining myself to the takeout counter at Siam Orchid.

What else is new...

Have I mentioned that I am pregnant? And that a strange woman in a public restroom asked me when I'm due this weekend? To which I sheepishly responded, I'm due in MARCH.

So okay, I'm slightly huge. And LOVING it.

Maybe it's all the Thai. Or pseudo Thai, if you count the dishes I've made.

And I'm exhausted, blissfully so. And the way I'm peeing, you could stick me in a pond like a makeshift water pump. Suck it in, put those kidneys to work, send it back out. Suck it in, kidneys, out. In, kidneys, out. In, kidneys, out.

And I'd by lying if I didn't admit that there's a part of me that's terrified. Because five weeks in, and I'm head over heels in love with the sweet and beautiful little life growing inside my body. And so desperately I want this magic, this miracle, to continue.

Infertility is a stubborn bastard. I've reached where I thought I might never reach. And here I am, in love and vulnerable. And terrified that this bliss will be ripped away.

So this is my moment. Full of Thai addictions, full of pregnant bliss, full of love, fully aware that I live this all with guarded caution.

12 comments:

sarah said...

Eat all the Thai you want and enjoy every second!

Kelly said...

Live it up, girl and feed that sweet baby! I know all too well the fears you are facing and if this ivf works for us (I had my ET of 2 beautiful blasts today) then I am going to struggle with those fears as well. Let me know if you figure out a way to get past that...I don't think there's an easy answer with all the trials us IF girls have already gone through.

WildRose said...

ahh a much needed update!! I just love clicking into your world and feeling all the positive energy!! Drink up that love...drink up all that love:)
You go prego mama!!

Cathleen said...

Yum! You are making me hungry! :)

If you figure out any recipes, please share...

Christa said...

Twins!!

Jilliane said...

That belly sure is hungry and growing!! I saw it with my very own eyes. It is very fun to rub as well ;) Full of life!

Kim190381 said...

Can you imagine this being any better at any other moment in time? All is right in the world, Mrs. Mommy Purinton! Keep those little guys nice and fat in there...yes, I meant to imply that there are more than one of those bundles renting space in there. Keep rubbing that belly, eating yourself silly and enjoying everyone moment of this fat belly time period!

Melissa said...

your oldest brother has a recipe for a thai coconut milk soup that's rumored to be very good. pad thai is not too hard to make - go to an asian market and get the fish sauce though; that's the secret and necessary ingredient. I got you all a present yesterday!

Melissa said...

OK, this is too funny...one of your google ads associated with this post was this: http://www.thailovelinks.com/default.cfm

How many clicks did you get on that one???

Melissa said...

OK, this is too funny...one of your google ads associated with this post was this: http://www.thailovelinks.com/default.cfm

How many clicks did you get on that one???

Debbie said...

Great, now I have to learn how to make Thai food? I spent today learning how to make dill pickles for all of you :) Hope you get a pickle craving sometime during this marvelous adventure! Give Sweet Pea(s) a rub for me!

Just Me. said...

Hi, today I hit 4 weeks and I am terribly frightened too..cuz after ttc for so long, i fear that it will be taken away from me, just like that.

I have everything crossed for you and me. ((((hugs))))